I wish I would have known when you didn’t feel a part of us anymore.
Maybe it was the moment you left. I hope it was.
I hate the thought of you next to me without wanting to be.
It was never that way for me,
well not until we touched after us
and you told me it must just be chemistry because you weren’t in love with me.
And suddenly the person I trusted most
became a person who was a ghost
looked right through me to the other side
without trying to capture my eye
I had never conceived he would leave me
because it wasn’t easy.
It was electric. It was rare. But I guess he didn’t care.
He was done. On to another one.
He believed in the law of diminishing returns
maybe it always was
just a matter of time.
It isn’t true. He cares a lot. I do too.