My mind speaks
“We can never represent it accurately”
My hand is pressed, cold palm to forehead
My fingers nestle deep in warm hair,
curve their nails lightly into my scalp
like waves of the ocean, brush by the tides.
But my eyes pause,
draw themselves closed, clothed, contorted overload of the land.
light, too bright, when I remember outside is night.
New moon, too soon leaves the room
slides by, hides, so sly.
Sulk, slack, sit unseen.
Impressed with yourself for not wearing Maybelline.
It’s so obscene, you’re so damn lean.
Forgotten serenity, the entity of totality, til I’m almost ill.
Still, realizing real life pauses are important.
Pen poised, patient, prepared for the perfect timing to touch the paper,
to express a thought worth thinking (doesn’t happen a lot)
inking, indecodable, quotable quips.
Quick trip for some, an “oh yes, fun” then they “have to run”
always jump the gun… not saying I’m never one but what do they do once they are done?
I’d want a refund, but realize I refused to retrain my brain to refrain so I’d abstain~
Written 2002, Dec. 10th